19 March 2015

Moody blues

Lloyd Dobler: Why can't you be in a good mood? How hard is it to decide to be in a good mood and be in a good mood once in a while.
Constance: Gee, it's easy.

This week I've had mood issues. I don't know about you but for me a bad mood that's sparked by one thing can very quickly become an infectious disease scenario. It leeches it's way into every aspect of my life.

So it was no surprise to find that this week's arrival of Bad Mood Brown took a toll on my writing. Whenever I sat down at the computer I just couldn't get it happening.

The chapters in my novel that I'd planned to re-draft to perfection by Friday (today) remain a hot mess.

The contract writing that I do to earn a few dollars here and there: it took twice as many hours as usual to complete (extra time that, of course, I can't charge for).

And my fledgling blog? The little slice of Sare that I'm putting out into the world...it threatened to flatline. I've started three new posts this week but could I get past the second paragraph on any of them? No.

What am I even doing? I thought, as my moodiness delivered a crashing wave of insecurity. Does anyone really want to read these stupid posts that I'm putting time and effort into? Does anyone really care?

The answer is...well, the answer is: maybe not.

But that's actually not the point.

If you could just check your crappy mood at the door for a while Sarah, I told myself, then you'd remember that this blog is supposed to be something enjoyable. A place where you can write and share and, hopefully, grow.


So now, having wasted far too much time wallowing, I'm doing my best to shake off the shitty 'tude and do what Lloyd Dobler suggests: decide to be in a good mood.

Writing this post has helped.

So has the mug of milky earl grey tea and the creme brulee tart I consumed while I wrote it.

Happy mood to you.